SubhanAllah — Glory be to God.
Just when you think you’re living THE life– You find out someone’s just ended.
The sad part is, people die every day. Click on any news channel and death isn’t something shocking anymore; it’s simply expected. But when it happens close home– even if it’s to someone you don’t know, but someone you know knows them— suddenly it slaps you in the face.
Death: It does not need an invitation. It does not seek permission to enter your life. It just comes about when God orders the Angel of Death to make a move.
(You’re wondering: your point is…?)
Well, here’s the thing. I’m living the life now– seriously. I’m taking an amazing summer class, meeting lots of interesting people, bridal showers around the corner, dance practices, Canada Day fun stuff, a wonderful family around me, my recent cooking experiments successful, the weather is lovely–
And then: KABOOM.
A friend’s sibling (who I have never met) dies in an accident… and I’m crushed.
We are from God & to Him we will return. This is without a doubt. I feel greatly for the family of the young man and pray that the All-Merciful showers His mercy on him & everyone who knows him.
And that wasn’t the worst part…
What really disturbed me was my unintentional but obvious forgetfulness of my own mortality.
See, you’re living a busy life and get so caught up in the details of it that it shocks you to find out someone’s own life just ended. I wonder: if mine ended now– as soon as I post this– will I be ready? Can I ever be? I am not sure how much longer my life will last but death is a certainty. Life is an illusion and the only thing we know for sure is Mr. Death knocking on the door.
The only thing we know for sure is that we are going to die; someday, somehow, somewhere.
And yet– death is the last thing we think about. [OK, I won’t hold you accountable. That I think about.]
Again, I ask myself: Am I ready? The answer is obvious: No. Not in a million years. If I lived until the end of time and never again committed a sin, my deeds couldn’t guarantee me Paradise. Only if God likes what He sees of the innermost parts of me accompanying the deeds, with His will, could I even dream of it.
And yet, ironically enough, here I am typing up a blog post instead of actually preparing myself for that final exam question that we’ll all inevitably face… But I just had to let it out.
Everything we do in this life not connected with seeking the pleasure of God is nothing but pure vanity.
إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ
May God have mercy on us all. Ameen.